13 Reasons Why (My Version)

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13 Reasons Why is an American series based on the 2007 novel with the same title by Jay Asher. The story revolves around Clay Jensen and his friend, Hannah Baker, a girl who took her own life after suffering a series of demoralizing circumstances brought on by select individuals at her school. A box of cassette tapes recorded by Hannah before her suicide details thirteen reasons why she ended her life.

These past few days, I’ve been having sleepless nights for reasons I can’t figure out. I know that there is nothing wrong with me because I still know what is happening around me and I am still in control of my actions. Although lately, I’ve noticed that I eat a lot, I don’t wanna go out of my room, I don’t want to talk to a lot of people and I would rather sleep than interact with others. I’ve tried searching symptoms online and this is what I found.

  • Everyone annoys you.
  • You’re hungry.
  • Your stomach hurts.
  • Your skin breaks out
  • Your heart races
  • You got headaches.
  • You’re always tired.
  • Cold sores or Canker sores pop up.

I got 7 out of the 8 signs that I am stressed. I am trying to figure out though where is this coming from. It could be from work, family, friends or love life. To be honest, I’ve considered talking to someone about my situation. You might find it weird but yeah, I’ve considered seeking professional help like a doctor or a counselor.

Don’t get me wrong, I have no plans of ending my life. I just want to find out where this “self phenomenon” is coming from. Just today, I tried listing names of people who might be responsible for this stress. I know I should not blame this to anyone but we have to face the fact that most of the time, this is triggered by a person.

Disclaimer: I will not be mentioning the real names of these people because I don’t want to cause any trouble. I just want to document this phase of my life by writing it here on my blog.

I know. I am crazy. Who isn’t?

D.

 

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SINGAPORE LOOKBOOK

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Here’s a lookbook from my outfits during my Singapore trip last summer. I know it’s super delayed, sorry. I just had so much fun editing videos for my VLOG that I forgot to update this page for so long. I promise to keep up with my writing as well.

Anyway, we all know that Singapore is a very humid country and a mix of sun and rain happens almost everyday. You can never go wrong in wearing the comfiest  clothes with a twist. Check out some of my Singapore OOTDs.

CENTRAL PERK

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H&M Black pullover || Aeropostale stripes shorts || New Balance 247 in Black

HAJI LANE

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Giordano Classic Black polo shirt || H&M Black pullover || Tomahawk Yellow flash lens

MARINA BAY SANDS

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H&M printed White polo || Uniqlo Black walking shorts || Rayban Classic Black Aviator

UNIVERSAL STUDIOS SINGAPORE

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American Eagle Gray and Black Trucker Cap || Tomahwak Yellow flash lens || Metro Juan Navy Blue short sleeve polo || H&M Divide Black round neck shirt || Uniqlo Navy Blue easy shorts || New Balance 247 in Black || Herschel Mid-Volume Black backpack

IKEA – TAMPINES

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Replay nerdy eyeglasses || Uniqlo denim jacket || H&M Divided White round neck shirt || Uniqlo Black walking shorts || Adidas Navy Stan Smith || Prada Tessuto Nero

 

Singapore is one of my favorite countries to visit. I’m pretty sure I’ll be back in this city in the near future. Hopefully to explore and share my OOTD’s.

You can also my watch my Singapore OOTD VLOG HERE.

 

Xiè xiè,

D.

 

An Open Letter To Some People Who Don’t Like Conversations (Part 1)

I’m actually still having thoughts if I will continue with this entry or not. To begin with, the main reason why I want to write about whatever this I’m writing is to let these things out of my chest. Since the people involved are not fans of serious conversations unless it’s about their lives, I’ve decided to just write about them and my experiences with them here.

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Dear Valentine : Or should I say Ex-Valentine.

February 14, 2018 should’ve been our first anniversary, only if that I’m cheesy and assuming. You might be wondering what happened that day, let me take you back to Valentine’s Day 2017.

Our friendship went on a hiatus phase from October 2016 to the early days of February 2017. On February 14, 2017 you saw me walking along a busy street and you asked me where am I going. I told you that I’m just going to run some errands and you offered to walk me through. Right after, you invited me for lunch. We went to this Mexican restaurant and when we sat down you mentioned, ” Uy Valentine’s Day pala today, tayo pa magkasama”. And I never thought that it will be the start of something special. Remember we had this fight when I got back from Singapore?, that moment, I felt that you value what we had and you value me as a person. I did not expect that we would be closer after that incident. Your Viber messages would start my day in the morning and end my day at night. You would surprise me everyday from the sweetest note to the yummiest snack. We were inseparable and I’m pretty sure that something so special like that would bring us somewhere and it is very impossible to end it.

But as they say, All good things come to an end. The messages went from seldom to none. The sweet notes, the snack, even the hanging out all disappeared. I don’t know if it’s because of that something that we agreed on or was it because of that little secret. I thought we made it very clear from the start that this is what we wanted and as mature individuals, we will stick together and face our future together as friends. It took me 2 months to come to my senses and feel that I was somehow betrayed by someone who I treated dearly. Yes, I was hurt and it hurts so much every single day that I see you and you didn’t even say you were sorry. You know that you’ve hurt me and you know that this will happen but you didn’t do anything. You didn’t even bother to stop whatever was happening for our friendship’s sake. There were 2 questions I wanted to ask you that time: When are you planning to talk to me and tell everything and Did you just play with my emotions? I was so disappointed that I’m close to that point that you will not exist in my life anymore.

Good thing I know you already. I know how you treat your problems and how you treat people as well. And it’s very hard for you to say sorry but your actions say otherwise. You  are a living testament that action speaks louder than words. From the day that I’ve started talking to you again, you’ve exerted so much effort to show how sorry you were and how you always wanted us to go back to our old “us”. Sorry is very important to me but you were also important that it doesn’t matter anymore if I hear it from you or not as long as I feel your sincerity and remorse. I’ve forgiven you but I haven’t forgotten what happened yet. I know it will take time but at least I’m getting there, we are getting there. I just hope one day, you’ll find that courage to own up your mistakes and talk to me about what really happened. No more secrets. No more hiding. No more lies. Only the truth for a friendship that I know is very real. I’ll be waiting…

 

Still trying to understand everything,

D.

Define Don on WORDPRESS!

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Blogging.

Hi Guys! It’s me again! Same person, same blogger but different home. I’ve started blogging in 2006 via the blogging section of FRIENDSTER. I was so stressed with our graveyard team that night. I really wanted to release my anger that time but my friends were all in the day shift. I have my journal but the space is not enough. While browsing Friendster, I found out that there’s a new feature, the blog. I can still remember the title of my first blog entry ever, “People That You Should Avoid In The Office”. I literally described all the people that I hate and I gave them their screen names. They should feel honored because someone is taking time to write about them. Lol! I know that I really suck in creative writing but after I finished that entry, I felt the satisfaction. And then I realized that blogging can be a good stress reliever. Then my MULTIPLY, BLOGSPOT and TUMBLR blogs were born. Looking back at my old inactive blogs, from the topic of my entries, the words that I use to my grammar, I can say that I’ve truly evolved as a “BLOGGER”. I hope you guys will love this new blog just how much you loved my old blogs.

Kisses,

D.

PS. – In the meantime, pardon me if I will just re-post my old blogs here. I promise to squeeze in new entries as well.