13 Reasons Why (My Version)

13 reasons why

13 Reasons Why is an American series based on the 2007 novel with the same title by Jay Asher. The story revolves around Clay Jensen and his friend, Hannah Baker, a girl who took her own life after suffering a series of demoralizing circumstances brought on by select individuals at her school. A box of cassette tapes recorded by Hannah before her suicide details thirteen reasons why she ended her life.

These past few days, I’ve been having sleepless nights for reasons I can’t figure out. I know that there is nothing wrong with me because I still know what is happening around me and I am still in control of my actions. Although lately, I’ve noticed that I eat a lot, I don’t wanna go out of my room, I don’t want to talk to a lot of people and I would rather sleep than interact with others. I’ve tried searching symptoms online and this is what I found.

  • Everyone annoys you.
  • You’re hungry.
  • Your stomach hurts.
  • Your skin breaks out
  • Your heart races
  • You got headaches.
  • You’re always tired.
  • Cold sores or Canker sores pop up.

I got 7 out of the 8 signs that I am stressed. I am trying to figure out though where is this coming from. It could be from work, family, friends or love life. To be honest, I’ve considered talking to someone about my situation. You might find it weird but yeah, I’ve considered seeking professional help like a doctor or a counselor.

Don’t get me wrong, I have no plans of ending my life. I just want to find out where this “self phenomenon” is coming from. Just today, I tried listing names of people who might be responsible for this stress. I know I should not blame this to anyone but we have to face the fact that most of the time, this is triggered by a person.

Disclaimer: I will not be mentioning the real names of these people because I don’t want to cause any trouble. I just want to document this phase of my life by writing it here on my blog.

I know. I am crazy. Who isn’t?